Friday, January 28, 2011

Can You See Me?

Peering through the foliage of life

Well some of you may recall that late last year I spoke about doing a big reveal in 2011 here on my blog. I hadn't done this to date as my courage had faltered. Look I am not even sure if people will be that interested. May be it is more for my own benefit than any one else's.

When I started this blog it was my intention to talk about what I was doing creative wise, as in sewing & quilting. 
I also wanted to eventually discuss the big job I had in front of me which is to become healthy.
I firstly I wanted to build up some sort of street cred.:)
I wanted to be known for all other things before revealing that I  have a massive weight issue that is robbing me of living my life to its fullest potential. So bad in fact that I am confined to my home for the majority of time, and any trips outside the home are huge ordeals and result in a lot of discomfort for me and hard work for those helping me.

In deciding to talk in public about my struggle with excessive body weight I realise that I open myself up for all types of comments and I accept that, and will deal with that with my internal wisdom.

Now I know that the people who know me and even those I am yet to meet in person would not think of me any less.

So the question could be asked why even bother writing about this issue then?
Well I guess for me it is about becoming seen. By this I mean even at my size I want to be seen for the whole package that is me. For the joy I find in life, the love I give to my family & friends and my new found creativity.

I am imperfect.
I am compassionate.
I am vulnerable.
And I am enough.

I came across Brene Brown some time ago now and found this TED talk she gave, have a listen and see what you think. Now I would love to hear what you think so please leave me a note.

I could probably write on and on, but don't want to bore you too much yet. I wont be banging on about this part of me all the time but now I can talk about other bits of my life and you will have a better understanding where I am coming from.
That's if your even interested-quite presumptuous aren't I?




  1. Hi Jan, Kerri here. Just thought I would have a bit of a looksie here. Very brave move and I am behind you 100%. I think you are an awesome lady. Love you quilts too. I am very sewing challenged and just admire the work and creativeness that goes into sewing. Good on ya.

  2. Hi Kerrie, thanks for that. Your welcome to visit again.
    And I was also sewing challenged believe me. Give it a go some time/ :)

  3. Hi Jan, I have just listened to Brene Brown, what an insightful woman, I want to listen to more of her. I am going to look into "her" further such as books etc.
    Its amazing that when you come to the realisation that "you are enough", the change is what happens within you but the people who know you already know you are enough. I look forward to learning more about you as you feel comfortable to share, but that will not change the way I feel about you. I still accept you for who you are and know we have a connection and I feel we also have much in common.
    hugs for your journey...

  4. Hey Deb she's great isn't she. I have ordered some of her books too from BD, can't wait.
    I am so pleased we met, as you are one of my special friends who help make my life worthwhile.

  5. Jan I have just found this link from the simple saving web sight and decided that I wanted to listen to the talk. Thank you so much for posting it on your sight.

    I think it is one I am going to have to watch more than once. IT WAS/IS THAT POWERFUL :)

    My mum taught me to be open to others beliefs but as an adult and wife/mother my own struggles began. I had a breakdown 14 months ago. I truly believe this could actually be a turning point in my recovery.

    Thank you so much.

  6. Hi Kathleen how are you? I am glad yoy enjoyed the post, and please do come back love to talk to you all. And chat any time you like, I live it.
    Brene Brown is an interesting lady.
    Let me know how you get on, via my private email.

  7. Jan - you're an inspiration. I know I've said it before but I'll say it again. You're brave - very brave and that bravery has to be applauded - I'm clapping my hsnds and yelling "good on ya Jan".

    Dealing with issues that may not sound important to others at first, can in the long run help so many people. I'm proud to have you as my friend.

  8. Thanks my friend Rosemary, love ya. :)