It's been a while since I last posted hasn't it? Well life has been moving along as it does and days fade into the night and then another new day presents itself. What we make of it is our choice. In my case I am a little disappointed in myself as I have not made much of my days like we planned whilst I was still in hospital. Of course I always knew that the transition once I was home again; getting back into my comfortable groove would prove challenging, though I did think for once that my resolve to better myself both physically and mentally would come easier due to the scare I had.
I am reporting here that is hasn't. Okay, I have put it out there now. Of course initially I was frozen by terror at what I had been through and what could happen should I fail to turn my life around. But as the memories of my days of being hospital become more distant my resolve is waning. Try harder I tell myself. I get disapproving looks from family members who are unhappy and worried that I am yet to change over forty years of living habits in just a few short weeks.
How would you feel when it seems everyone is telling you off, making suggestions that just don't sound possible. What about having others control what you will and wont eat. Making decisions based on their mood on the day. Withholding affections until I do the 'right thing'. Sounds ugly doesn't it? Well it is, but then so is being at deaths door and having a beautiful family watch.
So what to do now I ask?
I was sent this message, wise words
It is after all down to me. I am the lead in this production. Everyone else from family to friends are the extras, although vital to the end product.
You know that I love blogging with pictures and because I have not had the nous to take and upload my own lately I am using these ones from my folder. They are from various sites on the net. If anyone can tell me the original poster I will credit them.
I hope to have some of my own for my next post which will be within the next day or so.
Stay tuned as I have some exciting (well to me anyway) news to tell. Nup, no hints. You will have to come back and read about it..
Hope you all are well and happy and doing something you love.