Monday, August 4, 2014

Resonating with the Positive

The absolute, most sure-fire way of physically moving in the direction of your dreams, Jan, 
on a day-to-day basis, without messing with the "cursed how’s," is living them, now, to any 
degree that you can.

And you so can -
    The Universe

This is the message I received recently from an online positivity blog I subscribe too. The past few email messages have resonated with me at this time in my life.

Life is always changing, for better and worse. I have been doing it tough for a while and my head has been full of anguish, sadness, self doubt, self loathing.

It has certainly hit me this year, in my 50th year, that time is running out. Rather than wait for times to be better and happier, now is all I have. No, second chances, no putting of till tomorrow. Now is all I/we have. So. This all sounds rather poetic and life inspiring. But, and there is always a but in my thinking (get out clause) how will I make this work? Baby steps. Teeny, teetering steps. Lugging this great body around is tiresome and incredibly painful. Indeed, some days I wish I never had to get out of bed. The only reason I do is that the pain becomes intolerable. 

                                                 My 50th birthday cake made by my eldest daughter

However, despite this, I know I need to make the best of what I do have. It's no good longing for something that is a far away dream. I'm not saying you can't have those dreams, but realistically,  for me I want to deal with the here and now of daily living. It's all the simple, normal things. Getting up, enjoying a coffee that the bloke makes very well. Returning to my new bathroom and sitting at the beautiful, user friendly vanity and attending to my ablutions and taking care to cleanse my face, moisturise my skin, brush my teeth. 
Having a lovely space that we have designed to accommodate my needs and the blokes is a real delight. It makes us feel like we are in a luxury motel in the city, being pampered. 
I will post photos soon when we take some nice ones. Our photography skills are not too good and wont do justice to the remarkable makeover.

Have you had any life changing thoughts lately?

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