Monday, November 28, 2011

Be back real soon

Just a quick shout out, I'm on my way soon. Car is packed to the roof, it's been filled with fuel, and even better the weather is lovely and mild. So without further ado, I will say adios and see you soon. If I get Internet access I will try to post an update, otherwise will do a full rundown when I'm home again.
Thank you to all the wonderful readers who take time to leave me a comment. Your words really give me a lift, and make me feel I am worth listening too.



Wednesday, November 23, 2011

My Nest

Hi Folks. Well I don't know why the page looks like this but I sent a picture from Picasa straight to the blog, instead of using my usual system and this is what I got. Not bad but it would not allow me to write where I wanted to. Never mind though as long as it allows me to publish the post.
The reason for including the above picture is because I am becoming more brave and less concerned about what others think of me. And when I say others I don't mean any of my regular followers or readers.
I'm referring to those people who take it upon themselves to judge and make comments, intent on causing upset. These people are everywhere and whilst I am stealing myself for my upcoming trip to the city and my medical appointments, and the inevitable queries, comments, negativity and plain hatred.
I am going out into the public in a wheelchair and it is the first time that I have been into places for many, many years.

The above photo is me sitting on my large, comfortable sofa that is
my nest from the time I awake until it's time to go to bed. "My Nest". I liken it a bit to Big Birds'nest in Sesame Street. This is where I use the laptop and do my sewing and quilting (note: quilt over arm of chair). I even eat here. It's just so easy as it is the most comfortable chair in the home.
That window is great for looking out off. From there I can see the lovely hanging pot plants, and the little tiny birds that visit looking for small insects and bugs. I love it when they start sing, it is a real privilege that.
I tell myself nearly every day that I will go out and sit on the patio in the sun for a while, but each closes with me not making the trip.
Well folks that state of dissconnection may change soon so stay tuned to this space.
What is everyone up to this Christmas?

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Thursday, November 17, 2011

Just a Moment

                Due to a lack of my own pics:

Well things have been ramping up around here. Getting ready to go to the big smoke. I do like to take my time so I don't forget anything. I hate last minute packing, makes me anxious. The Bloke infuriates me because he opens up his bag on the morning we leave and walks around casually throwing in his clothes, and he always packs more than me.

Anyway, have had the weight of the black dog on my chest this week, but have had a couple of break through days, and today is one of them. I can smile again. And I even find myself laughing at old episodes of The Pink Panther.
The sun shines on those days and my heart is again filled with hope for the future.

Anxiety wise things have been challenging. When I think about money, travel, non-productive days, I get a real panic situation. I use the tools I know to calm myself, including deep breathing, and the accept and commit strategies with varying results.

Had a visit from my GP last week and she tells me that while I am no longer anemic I still require another iron infusion, which will happen after I get back from the trip. Hopefully then I may experience some energy increases, just in time for the festive season.

Okay, this is it. I am not procrastinating any more today. Once I log off the laptop I will finish the cushion project I am making as a gift to a family member. Then I can pick up the lap quilt I am making for another family member. Whew, I do it every year. Put enormous pressure on myself to create sewn gifts for giving.

Take care fellow blog readers. I really appreciate it when you read and when you comment, it means a lot to me.


Thursday, November 10, 2011

A Quick Update

I'm here for just a short post tonight as I am very tired and can barely keep my eyes open. Things have not been going well for me. Nothing new really just a worsening in some areas. I wish the appointment for the sleep studies was closer. I want some answers to my prayers. I figure if I get some sleeps under my belt then I will have the energy to go onto the next thing in reclaiming my life.
But not as it was, but an even better one.
I was fortunate to have some visitors from a local community group this week and we discussed some ideas to get me socialising with other people outside and inside the my home. Of course I am more for the in home to start with due to feeling comfortable here and not being very mobile. I guess that is something for me to work towards.
When they left I felt a little excited, apprehensive but looking forward to seeing what happens.I think I will leave it here, I know it's short but really I am struggling, I know you will understand. :)
Thanks for reading. 

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

Hello readers. Today is the first day I have felt like blogging since last week. Yes low energy issues. I am still awaiting to hear from my doctor about blood results. I don't think the iron infusion fixed my aneamia so think more will be in the pipe work. I say bring it on, I need to feel alive again.
On another note I have finally managed to organize accommodation for my upcoming appointments in the big smoke. The bloke and I wanted something bigger where we cook our own meals and spread out more, however a months of searching I was unble to find anything that suited our requirements. They were either too expensive, too small, had steps and stairs, too far away from hospital or already booked. In the end we settled on the motel we have stayed at a few times before. Not much going fitpr it except it is clean, has a large disable friendly bathroom and we are ble to park right outside.

Thursday, November 3, 2011

This day 27 years ago...

In St Mathews Church
On the 3rd November, 1984

The Bloke and I were hitched
and today we have been
for 27 years.

Apologies for the blurry photos, we had to take a picture of a picture, as we don't have any loose copies. 

So young and ready to take on the future together. I was a youngish bride of 20, and the bloke 5 years older. Not as young as my mother though who was married at just 17.
But if your expecting a dialogue filled with what I have learned through the years about what makes a successful marriage, sorry no can do. Why? Because I don't know.
I fear that when we are very old and wrinkly some television reporter might ask us the secret to a long and happy marriage. I don't think I will know by then either.
It's just a matter of placing one foot in front of the other. Oh and maybe humour, yeah you need a good sense of humour, otherwise don't even try it.